May 19, 2012

A Terrifying Thought


18 days, 20 hours and 33 minutes. That is how much time is left until the moment that class is dismissed on the last day of school.

That is a really scary thought considering that this crucial moment will be the time when I see some of my friends for the last time. I don’t want to leave, and yet I feel as if part of me is already gone, making new friends in my new home. It is a strange thought that my days with my friends and in my comfort zone are numbered and I hate the thought that while some of my friends leave for summer and prepare to come back to the life they know, I will be leaving the only place that I have made solid memories of. The memories of my years before living here are anything but lucid and I hate the fact that slowly my memories of my current home will begin to elude me as well. I know that at some point I will begin to slowly forget the faces of my best friends and this terrifies me. Sure I will have Facebook and other means of communication, but they will slowly start making new memories and creating new inside jokes that I will no longer be a part of. I have set myself apart at some reunions and I can already envision what my absence will be like. They promise me now that they will miss me, and I don’t doubt that they will (as I have missed my friends that have moved in the past), but I know that as always they will slowly move on and leave me behind in the shadows.

I will slowly have to move on myself as I face what will become my new home, on my own. 

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